‘How Far Away is The Magic?’ #writing #lorijeanfinnila #womentravelers

Image by Josch13 from Pixabay

 Where is this next chapter taking me?

I have a wide open space that I can choose from.

Even though I may fall I want to take a chance.

Not sure if I should go that far. Do I have to to find the magic: the one chance that will make the decision for the rest of my life, the one that will give me happiness, hopefully without interruption.

Interruption with pain, struggle, abuse, lost beauty to my life, all the magic that I want.

How far away is it?

Clip 'Beast of Heaven' #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

 

Video Clip 'Love the Right Way's #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter #lovetherightway

 

Sailing Butterfly #womenwriters #lorijeanfinnila #sailingbutterfly

 

Image by Rezső Terbe from Pixabay

I’m like a butterfly flying away

I’m not coming back 

for any further disturbance

My life span too has come to term

Of any back like 

Where I’ve been

I’m soaring higher where I can breathe

Hoping to find others like me

With many colors that I won’t ail

Please clasp my own up there

to no harm’s way

Wherever you are 

I’ll still be with you

See I’m a mender too

No matter how high I can only sail

I’ll be among you.

First Poem On One of My Photos I Took #lorijeanfinnila #womenwriters #photography

 

I added a clip of my song to this video version. Song 'God Has All the Power' in the side bar under 'radio friendly' links.

Flying All Alone #rocknroll #lorijeanfinnila #videoclip

 

Sing Little Baby, Sing With Me : Inspired by First Aid Kit Song 'Emmylou #lorijeanfinnila #singetsongwriter #isabelle #mylittlebaby'

Sing Little Baby Sing With Me

Image by Marjon Besteman from Pixabay

I'm here in the desert

Sweating, not breathing 

Looking for you

Sing with me

My ghost

I’ll give in

I’ll be your everything 

I’ll be your dreams

I know you won't grow

If I don't let you go

I’ve been there

Holding up the door

To everyone stronger than me with a problem 

But I’m holding on everyday

With the strength I lack

You keep returning in my picture 

You bring me to you

When you pass through

When I'm not asking for a story

That I so desperately need in my life

I’ll be your everything if you’ll be the end of my pain

You’ll be my future 

All my dreams

All the existence of my life

Just sing with me 

little baby

Sing with me

What Do I Write About #lorijeanfinnila #writer #autoimmunediseases #chronicillness #movement

 

What do I write about?

Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay

I just checked my social media

No one wrote me back. 

I found a woman who couldn't move 

I found one without shaking

Another gets too dizzy

I with my bicycle 

Chorus

What's wrong with me

No one wants to see me

No one wants to talk to me

No one wants to hear what I have to say

I try to go to the gym

I have to cancel every ride

The air is so thick

We're all waiting in line

To sleep

The dreaming I use to know the cuddling on my bed

The warmth of the sheets

That makes no difference at all now

the love I felt is gone

Chorus

No one wants to hear what I have to say

…….

I'm tired of fighting to breathe

Too tired to walk

Counting everything I do

Make sure it doesn't make me dizzy…..

I go.round and round I spin

Again

Sometimes only in my head

I'm on that rink in my mind on those uneven bars

I know others do it like this

Sometimes they just lay in bed

It's so much easier

I want to cry

But I go to music

I hear sweet melodies come from my heart and soul

And it keeps me going

Maybe I can share my joy

I want to move

I want to dance

I want to skate

Ride that bike

Swim in that pool without drowning 

Eat that food without worrying 

I want to be me

I want to be me again

I'm so dizzy

I'm so dizzy

Again.

Oct 13 #IAMJANEDOE #lorijeanfinnila #sexualassault

 

Song 'Half Covered' under radio friendly link.

Reading 'So Sad at One Time' from my book 'The Purple Sun ' #womenauthors #domesticviolenceswarenessmonth #lorijeanfinnila