Poem and Hurts So Bad Outside song #lorijean #ep #music #youdidn'tevenwantourbaby

Hello,

I'm learning and being able to close the chapter of many beatings to  my body starting the summer of 2010-2011. The emotional and physical pain instead of it killing me I felt to share in an ep. I hope it helps others. Here is the last song to show you.

Hurts So Bad Outside at Soundcloud as well.

Also, I had one more verse of words to share that I won't put into a song but feel the need to express my injuries in full.

Poem “Cracked Back”

by Lori Jean

I used to walk straight

even had a straight jaw

now I walk huddled over

with my cracked back

the knock on the right side

added to it and pushed it along

I pull across the floor

crouching over like never before

I pull my eyes up

another day I push along

Can't take enough pills

to get rid of the pain

You severed all the nerves

about 3 feet long

all along the side

I wanted to play guitar on

It all sounds like green eggs and ham now

that I can now only dream upon

of singing and playing in my head

because the nerves in my hands

throb and remind me of what will lay ahead

can't take enough pills

to hide me from this pain

my glucos kicking in

but not enough

collagen keeps it from being rough

andrew lessman's makes it weary enough

now all I have to rely on

is myself

getting me out of the rut

that I fell so far into

I'll stretch these darn scars

till there's nothin' left

I won't complain again

or cry for sorrow

I'm only asking for less pain tomorrow

they started out on me when I was so young

that's how others got encouraged to go along

I know I'm not the only one

others get pushed around like me

I'm so sure

The end.

Mwah!!!!