"Till Then" #lyrics #redone #sexual #physical and #mental #abuse #lorijeanfinnila #singersongwriter

Though it's still a mouthful, I think I've brought this song to something you can understand and more lyrical. It's hard where it's coming from my personal story trying to make it a bit universal, but I get closer. I think the hardest part is that it may have started when I lost my child in my stomach in its second trimester being ripped from me, when I was forced and drugged then, possibly lined up with other little girls that were wards of the state and/or human trafficking victims (those very well protected of these procedures at that time, that's why I tag #spotlight) ( if you know the story), possibly as a way to track me as a woman, which closed me off. 

To those that broke me.

This picture is how I felt, never so alone in my whole life, and it went on for many years.

"Till Then" redone

Verse 

I faint when I think of the time lost 

at the time of the past 

after I was taken advantage of

after I was drugged

Chorus

 I know one day I will talk

I'll walk so high confront those 

and be so proud that day

and be rectified till then 

Verse 

I said no one said he needed it 

I couldn't fight 

one took away my protection

I froze though I had never moved.

Chorus

I know one day I will talk

I'll walk so high 

confront those and be so proud that day

and be rectified till then 

Verse

I wish I knew then what I know now

how well planned

possibly sometimes just to hurt

what they didn’t realize

is that they broke me

Chorus 

 I know one day I will talk

I'll walk so high 

confront those and be so proud that day

and be rectified till then 

Verse 

It all started with a simple plan 

Make me look crazy though I made no sense

I didn’t know what happened to me

the thing was too wild 

even for me

Bridge

Was followed for many years 

Brought fright and physical pain 

I'll walk like an adult 

See myself stand tall before God 

Who knows it all 

ooooooo

Chorus 

 I know one day I will talk

I'll walk so high 

confront those and be so proud that day

and be rectified till then 

ooooooo

Till then

In my shoes

I’ll see myself stand tall

before God who knows it all

Till then

ooooooo

Till then

till then